Well Summer quarter has begun officially. I only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays this week, but I will have hours and hours of homework in each class every single day. It really is unfortunate. I was expecting the workload to pile on as soon as I started my upper division classes, but I forgot that class times were less flexible; I also didn't take into consideration Samantha's stubborn attitude towards sleeping without a binki. It is a fight with her every night and I am losing my patience with it. I have to wait an hour or two just to start my homework because it is impossible to study with her making such a racket in her bedroom.
I can already feel the stress building. It frightens me, to be perfectly honest. I have so many responsibilities within my home and for school. Sometimes I feel like I am alone in it all. I fear for when Ben starts school next week because it's just going to get worse. I love my husband very much, and he does help with things when I ask him to...but I wish that I could afford a nanny to help out. I'm lucky if my dishes get done once a day...if my table isn't clustered with so much crap...if my laundry was cleaned, folded, and put away all in the same day (or even within just a few days)...if my bathroom got a good scrubdown more than just once every 3 months...if dinner was actually cooked from scratch more than once a week, or if dinner was even cooked at all...if I could spend as much time on my studies that I actually want to...if I got a full 6 hours of sleep undisturbed...I could keep going if you like.
What makes it worse is that my GPA last quarter brought my cumulative GPA down. Instead of ALMOST being at a 3.7, I am barely above a 3.6. I cannot allow that to happen again! I am determined to graduate with at least a 3.7. It is my goal. I want to be able to say that regardless of my messy house (which is completely unavoidable at this point), late night last minute readings, and all the peanut butter and honey sandwiches I managed to feed myself and my children, I kicked some serious booty in my Business classes.
I wonder sometimes why my blog looks so boring, but then I think of how last quarter went and I remember that making my online blog look nice is such a poor use of my time. I'll be lucky to make a post for the next 3 months. But it's important to me to document these moments during this crazy time of our lives. I will appreciate it a bit more in a few years, and maybe then I'll make it look nice too.
I have pondered a great deal about pursuing a Masters Degree. I like the idea of having that on my resume, but after hours and hours of stressing about it (I have messed around with my graduation plan so much, it doesn't even resemble my original plan), I have decided that instead of wasting almost a quarters worth of classes, I would just double major instead. All I need is 10 credits more to meet my 225 to be CPA eligible after I fulfill all of my accounting courses. Why should I waste my money on a Masters program? It would be more worthwhile if I were pursuing a career at a huge firm directly out of school...which I am not. A career, yes. A huge firm, no. So...I am going to attempt a double major. I have added Business Administration with a specialization in Human Resources. Human Resources! After some research, I think that I might actually enjoy that. And it's pretty useful too. It's like studying people in the business world. Not quite psychology, but maybe just as interesting? I don't know, we'll see. Wish me luck. The worst that can happen is I won't enjoy those classes (but certainly, what could be worse than economics?) as much as I could have enjoyed others. I'd rather have a double major than a bunch of random useless (for my career) classes.
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